I compare my style to a retard on a motorcycle.
And that’s pretty much all I got tonight folks. And I stole that line from Virtuoso. Just kind of rang true to me about how I feel. I have a lot of irons in the fire right now. I’m on the phone all the time, in meetings where I’m threatened with legal death if I ever talk about anything. I’m managing three emails addresses with my manager/assistant. Not that I’m complaining.
I’ve always liked the name of high school. That resonates with me. That’s what I was up to. Then I just bummed my ass around Seattle, Seoul, St. Julian’s, and finally found a home in San Jose.
Work is my addiction now.
I really am glad I’m keeping to blogging once a day, like I said I would, but I fear this blog will become too much regurgitation. I just keep it vague, “I’m busy”, and don’t realize how boring that is.
Here’s my deal: I’m cash busto because of the Full Tilt thing compared to where I was a few short months ago, but I’m fine. I have pieces in some companies. One is doing well. One is tanking. One might explode. I’ve cashed in my affiliate chips for pieces in something bigger. I have no problem paying the bills because I can sell videos, lessons, articles, and whatnot.
It’s nice to be diversified, because while things like Full Tilt come up, and I’m actually not able to produce a lot of cash at the moment, I always can pay the bills and have a pretty relaxed life, which was why I got into this in the first place.
However, there was a simplicity when I was younger to just waking up, jogging, and then grinding for 12 hours. Yeah it got old, but man, when I started, and I’d never made that kind of money before, that was fun. As you get more used to it the excitement begins to fade, which is a sign you’re handling it more professionally, but it also means the youthful exuberance is done.
What I find joy in now is feeling like a professional. The same satisfaction I get out of playing a tournament my hardest I also get from feeling like I used every hour of the day effectively.
I like to feel like an effective professional gambler, which means diversifying your bets. Put an hour into this company (long term bet), an hour into this (short term/quick return bet), put a couple hours into working out(lifelong bet), etc.
The last few days have been hectic. I’ve been trying to focus most of my energy on what could be the biggest project of my life, but the other businesses keep popping up.
How did I get here? Wasn’t I just a kid who played cards?
I like the feeling of being unable to work anymore. I like to feel like I earn my free time.